Trying to Adhere to Commitments
I did not write since September. Last two months were full of clutter in my mind. Don’t know how all the things went, if I want to recall them. It was like job from 8 to 8. (It looks like ∞ to ∞ to me.) Along with that, I was involved in photography. My nights went surfing yourshot.nationalgeographic.com and flickr.com. What else did I do? Nothing much. I was not trying to adhere to commitments but was struggling to carry out them.
Ten days of October were spent in a training in Chennai on a very tight schedule of Radiographic Testing classes. Radiography is a very interesting subject. More and more Radiation and Atomic Physics is inolved. The training was like remembering those days of school when Physics was my favourite subject (except for the mathematics involved). It was a good time.
Other than these ten days, I was supposed to follow some commitments I could not do justice with. These are as follows:
1. Daily physical exercise for HMI BMC 2013 due in March 2013. I will have to understand that this is the only thing which will help me complete the course successfully. I got to start it again even if winters are coming and only four months are left for preparation. Sometime or other I even have a thought to cancel the course and live a comfortable life in my room. But, then again I think even if I fail to successfuly complete the course or have to leave halfway through or even for a day, I will go there.
2. Writing for my blog. Sometimes I involve myself so much in one task that I don’t feel like doing justice with other stuff. And the result? Clutter. Unless I write my feelings or introspect what’s going on, I cannot clear the clutter in my mind. There is too much information and thoughts which have to be made straight and clear. Writing helps.
3. Photography. I took my camera to Chennai. And met Karthik Pasupathy (a flickr friend and an experienced photographer). He told me about his startup Kpture. It was nice meeting him. But, I regret not being able to click many photographs. I don’t know why I hesitate to take my camera out and click photographs. I will try to overcome this fear and click more photographs.
4. Peace of Mind and Minimalism. I was very much inspired by Leo Babauta’s ZenHabits.net and mnmlist.com. Somehow, I too feel the same way about our desires and the things we accumulate. Minimalism is a good philosophy and as Leo says everyone can have a minimalist life in their own way. Other stuff he focus on is breathing, meditation and mindfulness. I too felt good when I tried this stuff in the beginning. But, since last two months or so, I am not able to find time for this. Or better say I am not able to find time for myself. (And the fact is I have the same amount of time as I have before.) These habits are best inculcated and I will try to do that now.
When I have gone through these points, I feel that I had to travel for 3-4 sundays in this period. Travelling disturbes my regular habits like running, meditation and writing. And the only time I get to think is on Sundays during an evening walk in Polytechnique College ground on the outskirts of town. This Sunday, I am going back there but before that I promise to start these three activities atleast i.e. running, mindfullness and writing. Writing is fulfilled now. Tomorrow morning let’s prepare for a nice jog in the ground. Mindfullness will come through in every activity I do. Now, I guess I shall be trying to adhere to commitments I made to myself.